More Timothée Chalamet

I watched two more Timothée Chalamet movies: "Lady Bird" and "Beautiful Boy". Lady Bird was a good movie, although Timothée only had a small part in it. Beautiful Boy was a very hard watch for me because I had been involved with someone who had drug problems (they passed away in March of this year). It was heart-wrenching, frustrating, and very sad. It brought me right back to where I was just a short time ago, and it really upset me. It was so hard to go through and it almost destroyed me. Watching this movie stirred up all kinds of bad feelings inside me. The Timothée Chalamet character in this movie survived, unlike my friend who lost his battle with drugs. It really hurt reliving that time in my life again. Timothée's acting in the movie was very realistic, and it brought back memories of what I went through with my friend. I kept bursting into tears and feeling very panicky. I almost cut the movie off several times, but I pushed through it and kept watching to the end. I'm glad I did because I needed that closure, even if it wasn't real. I wish it had been real. I wish my friend had survived, but he didn't, and I'm still picking up the pieces of my life after his death. My heart is still broken. I'm still broken from it all, but I'm still here. I still have to fight everyday to get through it. Some days are better than others. I'm not giving up. I will fight on, but I'm tired. I'm so tired. God is with me every day. That's how I survive. I'm not alone. God is here. I miss you, Tommy.